Drama

So I have been known to be an emotional girl, but this is getting ridiculous! Once I start crying, I can't stop! I have said it before, but I think this is my payback for not having morning sickness!

The reason for my crying this time started with my last monitoring session for contractions this morning.  I felt one-the machine showed 9. Now, that's a big difference! This was the whole reason for me being put on the monitor in the first place. So, the nurse had be give myself a demand dose of the Terb. and was going to have me re-monitor later.  I reminded her that today I am supposed to be taken off of everything.  She wanted me to still do the demand dose and was going to call my doctor.  During that 30 minutes, I managed to get out a good amount of tears.  She called back and said he still wants me to stop everything. Is he nuts??? Did I not just prove the need for the home monitoring? How in the world am I supposed to know that I need to go to the hospital, which is an hour and a half away, if I don't realize I am having contractions? Does he think I like risky situations? I do not mind being taken off the medication and am fine with delivering if I go into labor rather than stopping it.  I would really feel more comfortable being on the home monitor until that time though.  The monitor is what sent me to the hospital almost 3 weeks ago when I didn't realize I was having contractions every 5 minutes. So now they tell me to just plan on going in when I get more "uncomfortable." I just don't want to wait too long and risk the health of the babies or myself.  I may try to convince him of my need for monitoring at tomorrow's appointment-if we make it that long.  I will say that I like not having any tubes/cords to deal with for this short time, but once I go to the hospital that will be over!

Sorry, but I had to vent my frustrations somewhere-maybe I can stop crying now! :)